Sunshine Days and Cloudy Nights

Hello.
First proper blog and I have a feeling it's going to be a long one. Lets begin with Sunshine Days, this Easter I have been in awe of the beautiful British weather. The fact people are having BBQs in April, eating ice creams in the park and generally enjoying themselves makes me so happy. April Showers can wait a little bit longer I feel. Although I'm still lacking in the slightest bit of colour on my legs I'm sure if the sun continues they will brown up nicely..or go very red depending whether I remember suncream or not! Today I saw some old friends and truely realised that no matter how long you go without seeing them, when you can sit in Starbucks for over 2hours talking not thinking 10minutes had past thats means you have a lasting friendship. Old jokes mixed with new gossip and updating on your lives whilst reliving past times makes me so happy and I am so thankful I have people I can do that with. Even though I had to sit for an hour on a bus with no music sounding from headphones there and back, it was worth it.
Favourite quotes of the day have to be;
"What's the point in having a block if you can't go round it a few times?"
"Can you comfort eat diet pills?"
"Do you have to keep licking the Starbucks lady in public?!"
I do truely adore my friends.
The sun has also meant me and the boyf have been able to go out flying kites, walking and doing general outside things which has been amazing. I love that we do real things together and even if from the outside it looks incredibly mundane, on the inside I can assure you it's anything but. Nearly 3months together and I'm still struggling to believe it. Couldn't believe just one person could make me this happy.
So here is my plea to the weather man; 'Please let the sunshine continue, and if you can't give us rain that makes people go out and dance in it, run through puddles with patterned wellies and couples kiss in it. Whatever the weather is; let it make people smile like the sun does'

Next comes the cloudy nights. It seems that whilst the sunny days are filled with joy, the nights are a different story. In the form of saying goodbye to people I care about, arguements and being to far to away to make people I love happy. I hate that I can't drive. When someone tells me they are upset I can't go to their front door, take their hand and take them away. I can't be the person they need, being at the end of the phone isn't enough, you can't do anything that will really make them smile unless you are there with them. It scares me to think that someone will need more than a phone call, and I wont be able to give them what they need like a real friend would. I would give anything to hold them in my arms right now. I hate the way you never seem good enough for your families expectations and you are always that little bit of a failure in their eyes in comparison to your brother. My friends oppinions and expectations have now become more important than anybody elses, at least when I fuck up, they understand and help or just laugh and tell me I spent too much time on Facebook. Either of those is better than seeing another flash of dissapointment in my families eyes. I also hate the way I am in a crap mood after a lovely day, but like the title says 'Sunshine Days and Cloudy Nights', hopefully I'll start sleeping again soon and the cloudy nights wont seem so long.

On a positive note check out Jose Vanders - Literature Lovers album, it's brilliant and makes me feel all summery, also Metric, King Charles, Two Doors Cinema Club and Scouting For Girls new song is/are lush.

In A While Crocodile.